Today I decided to take a break from podcasts or talk back radio on my drive home from a delivery I made. Flicked on my iTunes and it played More than Able by Elevation.
I have heard it a few times and always enjoyed the musical space in the chorus but I also have to admit that I have a problem with it. Not the song really, but what it causes me to do, the reaction I have to it specifically. When I listen to it it makes me think and ponder many things. Some macro and some micro.
For me personally I begin to question whether I really do believe the sentiment.
During the chorus is makes we consider whether I do believe God is more than able in my life or whether through all my hurts that my faith has been tarnished?
And then that phrase at end reflecting on whether God is finished with us yet, or us individually, that gets to me honestly, because I have many times wondered whether He has finished with me?
As I pondered this more and more I kept coming back to something that I have always believed from his word, that faith is what pleases God.
It is not the looking good. Or nailing some spiritual discipline for everyone to see. It seems to always come back to be faith.
So here I am pondering faith, my faith, where ever that might be...
And then I pictured others reaction to this song and the same sentiments.
I have seen polarised positions on this recently.
One group are believing for amazing things. They are praying hard. They are responding in a worship service according, stirred to believe God is more than able as the song is sung.
There is another who struggles to believe God for anything beyond the most simple. Who look at the first group with a healthy dose of cynicism for their hyper faith.
Honestly it is easy to be in either camp!
You can be caught up in moment believing for the most amazing.
Or you can be practical, maybe even cynical in another moment in time.
What I keep coming back to is personal.
It is not what the hyper faith believe or what the cynics say to counter things.
It is always what is happening in my heart that matters most.
So maybe what I am trying to say is this...
Don't compare you faith or passion or belief to everyone else like you have to compete to receive.
Don't allow your heart to explain things away, or be bitter due to hurt and cynicism.
Try and do faith just you and God in quietness and confidence.
Pray and allow God to shape faith in your life and do what you can to live by faith.
That is part of my journey right now. Maybe that is part of yours as well?
Something to think about....
