The question I have pondered this morning is one many have asked me in variety of forms and contexts over the years, and seemed like a good place to start...
What have I learned?
As of Today. Right now in this moment!
Like what is it that I have recently discovered about myself, life, and my place in the world?
If you asked me this same question, maybe sitting together in a cafe enjoying a fresh brew, there would probably be 2 distinct answers that I would give you right now.
ONE "I have learned whether I truly trust God."
I have come to realise over the last few years and especially now, that you only know whether you trust God when you actually have to trust God.
What does that mean?
It super easy to say you do, when you don't have to in reality.
When life is going well.
When you have some money and roof over your head and no drama.
When your relationships are ok.
And when you have nothing of substance to complain about.
It is easy to say the words that you trust God, but let's continue being honest, they are probably just words.
My world isn't terrible, but it has not been that easy for a while now.
It has created a godly tension I believe that has forced me to be more honest about trust.
Do I really, truly, honestly trust God with my life?
My honest answer to that life has revealed that maybe that I do and I don't.
That I oscillate sometimes.
One minute having faith and others wondering what is going on.
Just being honest...
I think I desire to trust God sometimes more than the reality.
And that is something I am working on.
TWO "What I truly believe."
Following on from my "trust issues", the stage of life and the circumstances I am navigating, have revealed even more what I believe.
It is funny how trials and struggles reveal what we really think, feel and believe.
My outlook on the world is clear in my mind.
My beliefs.
My approaches.
And even my political proclivities are more real to me in this moment.
Because they are laid bare in my heart, it has given me pause to reflect on them, to analysis them and see if they match God's perspective.
Maybe it has been like a belief audit?
What you truly belief is very important and not something to shy away from and avoid.
Now it is your turn...
If you and I were sitting in a maybe the same imaginary cafe and I asked you "what have you learned", like recently in life, what would you answer be?
My hint would be not overthink but share what your first gut level answers would be.
I ultimately think it is both a healthy/good question along with being confronting.
Scripture tells to consider our life, our doctrine (1 Timothy 4:6).
To not just trudge on hoping we are ok and what we believe is ok.
Naivity is not a great strategy.
Honesty about yourself. What is happening and where are tracking is better.
Courage to then deal with it what is you discover about your heart right now is better.
Something to think about...
